Why does it have to be so god damn hard to find a job. I’m tired of wasting my time and gas that I don’t even have, going to interviews and never hearing from them again. Why, Why, Why! I’ve applied to more than 50 jobs, more than once and not one response.
But yet, my dad questions me why I’m always broke. Well hello, I fucking support your kid that you don’t even support, yet you want him to fucking live with you.
I only have one source of income, and he barely makes enough. I buy food&cook with money I don’t even have. I even sold my belongings, my laptop, jewelry just so my brother or boyfriend is able to eat something good. I have bills piling up, with my dad nagging me about paying other bills under his name on time! GOD!
I can’t even fucking borrow a dollar from my other brother! He act like I’m going to fucking take $1 and leave town! After all the time I’ve fed him, always asking if he wanted this and that when I’m going somewhere. Why do I bother when he can’t do the same? Because I fucking care.
I’m to a point of giving up, or even doing things I shouldn’t for money. And I’m starting to not give a fuck about any one but myself and boyfriend.
Whenever I see a pretty girl, I feel so intimidated. It's like whenever I think I look decent or okay, I come across a pretty girl in a picture or a pretty friend and I just immediately fall into the assumption that I would never measure up to that kind of "pretty." It's like I can never be enough because there will always be someone prettier and better.
There are three people who I consider my best friends. People who I known for a different amount of time.
Susan Bun est 1999 -Although I know this ugly thing the longest, she knows the story of my life, every dirty little secrets about me, & me being the god mother of her son. But after many years of being apart we don’t really communicate as much anymore. She’s busy with her life doing her own thing now. She was my childhood best friend (: We no longer hang out due to me being miles away. & it absolutely pisses me off that I put all the effort into this friendship and she haven’t been an ounce. So I gave up trying. I still love her & our baby boy tons.
David X. Nguyenest. May 20th, 2004 My besterest GUY friend . He was one annoying dude in the beginning & I couldn’t stand him. I blocked him on AOL chat for a while . Then after that we became the best of friends. He always knew how to make me laugh . I miss him a bunch since he moved to a different state. But no matter how many months we stopped talking, we seem to always pick up where we left off .
Monica Chamroeunest November 2004
But if I was to chose who I consider more as a best friend, it’ll be Monica. I can always be myself around her , no matter how stupid I may sound or look. There’s never a dull moment when we’re together. We do the stupidest&craziest things. I know that I can always, I mean ALWAYS count on her . (:
* Day 1 — Your Best Friend * Day 2 — Your Crush * Day 3 — Your parents * Day 4 — Your sibling (or closest relative) * Day 5 — Your dreams * Day 6 — A stranger * Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush * Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend * Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet * Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to * Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to * Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain * Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you * Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from * Day 15 — The person you miss the most * Day 16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country * Day 17 — Someone from your childhood * Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be * Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad * Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest * Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression * Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to * Day 23 — The last person you kissed * Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory * Day 25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times * Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to * Day 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day * Day 28 — Someone that changed your life * Day 29 — The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to * Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror